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Monday, May 2nd, 2005
12:52 am	she's been 21 for 47 ( now 52 min) not 21 min (1 Comment |Comment on this)
12:47 am	Happy BIRTHDAY INZA!!! inza and i are pulling an all nighter, its 12:47 and she's been 21 for officially 21 minutes, im dozed up on some energy drink and have like 10 papers to write, literally. we're sitting in the a3 living room with our lap tops... what an amusing thought. we (i) keep wanting to merely watch the oc special features from season one, though im maintaining self control and saying no! ummm... so i have spread the word of the OC, stacey has joined the obsession... first it was ashley, then lyle, now stacey... soon it will be the world! its just so...addictive. better than drugs though! definitely.... definitely cheaper too... i'm sure i'll be writing in this thing soon enough again...   Current Mood: energetic Current Music: trance party "only you" (Comment on this)
Sunday, May 1st, 2005
7:56 pm	so i dont really feel like adding any sort of color, or really anything creative for that matter besides the words im about to write. I feel as though perhaps sometimes we mustnt be caught in the frivolous things in life, and focus on whats real. i dont necessarily know what to write, since i havent written in this thing in so long, and feel as if the whole world has one now, that maybe im ready to come back into this "in" yet no so in thing to do... most of my friends from west hartford dont even have one of these things, i mean we just dont have time. And perhaps its for the simpler folk, or perhaps its for those of us without being able to attend a school which allows us to use FaceBook, which EVERY OTHER COLLEGE has for students to interact with eachother as well as other students and friends they have who attend other schools. So its stacey's birthday really soon, really really soon actually, in a few hours. Ummm lyle's was the 14th, ben's was the 28th which was this past thursday( but he turned 22) so hes gettin to be an old man, oh and the double B joined him in his 22nd year on the 22nd... He christened his bday, what fun :). umm what else is new... i dont really know.school is o-v-e-r in aproximately 9-ish days, and ya know what? im home 4 of those 9 days, what glory this is, i can not wait to go home, school this semester has taken a toll on my sanity and i dont think i can handle being away from west hartford any longer, or i could possibly need to commit myself. Current Mood: anxious Current Music: hmm nothin, anxiety by b.e.p. is in my head though (Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 7th, 2004
7:08 pm	So.... i think ive grown, in allowing someone to come into my cage.... though im not so sure i want it to be that way... As ive grown ive also realized i enjoy my old ways, and quite enjoy being single, and yes im still single. Though i just dont know anything anymore, i think i'd much rather just sit back and not allow anything to happen... i feel as though if things to go on further, people could get hurt and it isnt a place in which they should. No one should get hurt by merely having some fun, At this point in my life i dont think i could handle anything more than fun. I dont think i want any labels and i dont think i want any real committment, im merely 20 years old and have a life ahead of me with plans i wish and plan to keep. So much has happened that i feel i need to take life a bit more slower... Current Mood: confused (Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 1st, 2004
2:12 pm	not thirsty, thoughtful.... Current Mood: thoughtful (Comment on this)
1:59 pm	what do i have to say? hmmm not much i dont believe... i havent really been thinking about much lately, perhaps about life in general as we grow older... im 20 now and therefore perhaps should grow up a bit more though dont necessarily wish to... seriously though....   I do think im quite refined though... as i sit here listening to Wolfgang Mozart's Eine Kleine Nachtmusic... quite exquisite indeed, i feel as though the strings in Vivaldi's Winter, in F minor are much more dramatic. I feel as though they seep through my veins, each note special in its own way, creating goosebumps to their fragilty yet might....   there was ^^^^^ up there ^^^^ was a taste of the adult more mature marlene... nah... i do feel that way about Vivaldi's Winter though.... its so .... enchanting... sooooo, nothin much is new besides the fact that its december first and schools over for the semester in 3 weeks, and im about to lose my mind in the immense amount of work i have to do... and as leah just said "its horribly windy outside" that and the drastic amount of rain that seems to be seeping from the sky at torrential magnitudes... maybe it isnt sooo like that.. but its kinda...just like that wasp the size of my hand that was in our kitchen the other day...   hmmm what else is new....   nothin absolutely nothin...   dont you ever just sit and think about life though? i mean why certain things happen, and why certain people come into our lives? and the emotions those people bring into our lives, theyre all for a reason, and who knows what will happen? you just let things go with the flow, let them take their course in fulfilling their duty, the destiny, fate, serendipity... or as some like to think, God's plan... Alexander Pope once wrote about God's plan in his Essay on Man, and he was right...that perhaps people do have this set destiny though we may alter it in some aspects, we may swerve towards things we want, and swerve away from those things we dont want... well i guess thats it for today... tchau       Current Mood: thirsty Current Music: Antonio Vivaldi "Winter in F minor" (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, September 18th, 2004
1:04 am	back at school Europe was amazing and all i can say is it was an amazing experience, zurich was beautiful, with a very handsome man...very handsome well more like guy...but yeah...is it getting hot in here? lol, and well paris and versailles, i mean come on now, it was unbelievable for pics im me and for more info ask me... i have more stuff to write in this thing, my thoughts,well my recent thoughts but its getting late and theyre in the other room...   A3 is awesome! lol well yeah and so is a4 and a6    love the apt and the girls almost 20! 18 days!!!   miss my mom and dad terribly, and my vinci... Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: kokomo by the beach boys and shadow by ashlee simpson (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, July 19th, 2004
10:38 pm	I agree i havent always been the nicest person, though i do believe we all owe each other some degree of respect. Treat each as you would want to be treated, doesnt mean im growing a full heart or anything heh...-merely means i respect my friends and the people who show me respect.     DID YOU KNOW: whoopie goldberg got fired from weight watchers because of her anti-Bush statements? indeed.     people.... country is the new pop...no j/k lol haha no...   i just recently bought my first country cd, and let me tell you...it touches my heart, i relate to it, and its awesome. Everyone should own Gretchen Wilson's "Here for the Party"...its like so good...im serious... and like i never used to be a country fan...but uh...i converted...thanks to Lyle... thankies Lyle! we can all listen to it in the apt in the fall! and partay! because we are all there for the party.... woowoo...lol   MISS YOU GIRLS!!!!   miss jenni pu too! she's off at the pennstate!   "Nothing..." the answer for everything apparently... Current Mood: confused Current Music: nothing... Andy Dick's "The assistant" on (Comment on this)
Sunday, July 18th, 2004
11:19 pm	LIME GREEN SHOES ROCK MY WORLD! (Comment on this)
Saturday, July 17th, 2004
12:31 am	okay so stuff that ive just posted is from the past two weeks, random scribbles of thoughts that have come into my mind as ive been at work...and ive finally gotten my live journal to work so that i could write them down somewhere... so yeah..theyre just random and im not even done yet... but there's more to come... i suppose ... hope you enjoy, if not...not my problem...dont be reading my livejournal. Current Mood: sleepy (Comment on this)
12:27 am	Don’t you just hate it when youre given the perfect opportunity with the certain latino who seems to drift occasionally into your fantasies (but your mom is there) and all wanna do is lunge to his feet and scream out loud “Take me into your arms you sultry and luscious piece of latino meat. Take me and make love to me all you want…” no wait…maybe I’d consider just saying…”have dinner with me…then do to me what you want, take me I’m yours…”…   Don’t you sometimes feel that life is passing you by? Way too quickly? 2 years to go, feels just like yesterday I was starting college…6 months have gone by since ree and matt have been dating, seems just like yesterday that it was winter break and we were all at that karaoke bar and he told her he liked her…Just so amazing how as we seem to get older the time seems to fly faster by. I go from having four months of summer break to having one and a half left… strange that’s all…sadness too… v.sad…v.v.bad…though looking forwards to school is exciting…being an upperclassman and all…don’t want the time to stop permanently…though I would like it to speed up a bit while im at work…after work it can slow down all it wants…   Things I believe are INCREDIBLY wrong: 1-     Bush as president. 2-    Girls ditching their best friends for boyfriends. 3-    Lime green shoes (unless theyre regular simple flip flops) 4-    War in Iraq 5-    Guys hitting girls. 6-    MEN DEGRADING WOMEN! 7-    Humidity. 8-    President Bush telling us everything is going to be alright when he and his family are best friends with the Bin Ladens. 9-    Couples who see eachother every day when they aren’t even married or living together yet… 10-                        Overdoing PDA’s ….if ya’ll don’t know what this is…well ask… 11- Vinyl & Pleather pants… ( girls and guys…just looked horrid) 12-                        Im sure there’s more to come… hehe   Everyone go see Farenheight 9/11 ….awesome movie!   Falling for the first guy who gives you the slightest bit of attention is naïve and silly- as is falling for any guy who gives you the slightest bit of attention.   Hopping from girlfriend to girlfriend or boyfriend to boyfriend is a sign of dependency and need- you are unwilling to survive on your own and are a pure match for low self esteem.   Making out with everyone you meet is also a sign of insecurity- as making out is, so is sleeping with everyone you  meet. Have you ever met one of those people? Quite frankly… I have, and well they are amazing people…. Though sometimes its just so sad to see them doing such a thing, because it just isn’t normal…and means they aren’t completely healthy mentally, though who is? Completely healthy mentally I mean.   Everyone has problems, and im not complaining about anyone or about anyone’s problems or one of my own- but God knows we all have them and we try to burry them deep in the ocean- digging holes like the ones we used to dig when we were younger and trying to reach China and gave up at some point- we shouldn’t give up on our problems but face them head on- though as a good friend of mine, Patrick, has recently brought to my own attention ( not that I didn’t know before- but he made me listen and I did) we all must face up to our problems no matter how bug or small- they are all equally important.   Sometimes don’t you feel like you could just “go back, back to the beginning, back to when the earth, the stars and the moon all align”….   “they say love is pain, and pain is love”   IMPORTANT STUFF: A guy  who turns you on with merely his presence, his whisper, his touch is like a drug…so addicting and bad for you , but can also be quite rewarding and satisfying- nice guys? Nah…only if when they whisper I shiver inside…   Funny thing: My boss was standing in the corridor, looking something over and saw the odd one/woman leaving and gave her a “what the hell you wearin’” look and blinked…   To eager to please? In the wrong places?   I think, theres a little office romance going on at my job… between the Home-y nurturing type lady and the hot and sexy accented latino twenty something… she’s prolly like 40… plus the other day I heard her talking about getting married…im way confused… though the eyes can be deceiving… and so can your ears! (Comment on this)
12:02 am	Concept of having an “our song” is highly overrated. Typically people choose a song they like a lot even love- I mean that’s the whole purpose right? Having a song you both love and can relate to- that describes the very depths of your relationship? Well I say F*** it… What if you break up? Horribly? You’ll never enjoy hearing that song ever again not; not entirely at least. There’ll always be that part of you that cant stand it and want it to never play again because its to hard to listen to without feeling nostalgic, remembering all those good times and with that comes remembering the bad… remembering the good times, makes you wonder why you and that certain someone aren’t together right now, or why you two ever broke up…though once the lyrics start flowing through your mind and by remembering the bad times you realize why you broke up and why it was the best decision of your life…to move on…and be happy doing so… because you can never regret, though if you do wish to do so…go ahead and forget!      (Comment on this)
Friday, July 16th, 2004
11:52 pm	Strange how we all seem to look at life differently yet the same…though maybe it isn’t strange…I may just be strange for seeing it that way at first…it’s common human nature to go for what we want in life. We are taught, from adolescence and on that we “can do anything we put our hearts and minds into” and it is true… Though this can be seen through every aspect of life…one can have a sense of fashion if he or she wishes to do so…it just takes a little time and commitment…as well as an understanding….these three concepts go for everything though, not just having a sense of fashion…I look around and see this in love, careers, family lives… everything really.   Ladies…BEWARE!!! There is a severe and ongoing battle between high school girls and college women….and those having just graduated from high school…are still considered those girls…. Our older, more mature eligible  twenty-something men…are being taken away from our grasps…yes they are…And I’m not saying there are no eligible 18 and 19 year old men there are…but those are not the one’s the girls go after. They stick to older, because in the eyes of the other little wide-eyed girls they are seen as triumphant and successful in some sick way because they have acquired an older man. . . I mean what has society come to? When fresh out of high school little slut wannabe’s are taking our available college twenty-something men? Even our college grads…poof…there they go…to be with someone barely legal…in both the 16 and 18 target age… Are we the one’s getting old?  Have we all been used? And deposited back into the wide sea of other used fish? Are all of the schools of guppies swimming away with our Flounders and Bass- as if they were piranhas attacking the poor innocent angel fish!     Back to my other conversation…from previous times…. The trouble with exotic men…is that they too are in search of foreign exotic women…so where does that leave us? If they don’t go for their own exotic kind, they what are we to do… an example is a tall dark handsome man may not want a brunette olive skinned woman…he may rather go for the blonde fair skinned woman because to him, she is the one who looks more exotic, for he is used to the first kind of woman…the olive skin…brown, brunette hair… Thus, basically, those of us who want our own kind are merely battling in order to sustain and keep tradition…   I think Jennifer Paige had it right in her “crush” song….things are just crushes and they’re better left that way “say the word forever more that’s not what im looking for, all I can commit to is maybe” she sings…”not like everything I do, depends on you”…I AM my own woman, my own independent woman at that and so is every other woman out there… though some more than others… I have no need for any man, other than my father, to be worrying and depending on me…for anything.   As I grow older, I myself have realized that I too learn more and more about fashion… It’s do’s and don’ts…I’m not the know all …and I never said I was…   Minds in the gutters…. Mmm what a nice thought…sammy… snug man’s tee shirt is definitely v. good. V. v. good. Indeed… heart racing and it seems to be getting hotter in here….He can “breathe on me”  any time he wants…   I “want to go to places my imagination has never taken me before” ….God yes… Maybe what Jim and Ree said before is true…                                                                                                                                               Current Mood: naughty Current Music: get mine get yours... christina aguilera (Comment on this)
11:50 pm	is iraque somehow helping us? if they dont allow the turnover on wednesday the 30th...then is that in some strange f*ed up way helping us....causing one more thing to be against ....Bush? Are they also trying to get rid of him? do they think that if someone else, i.e. Kerry becomes prez that we will be pulled out? do those who still play with bath foam...believe they are capable of mature relationships? (Comment on this)
11:48 pm	Am I sick of white boys? Doesnt mean i wanna go black and never go back...Simply means perhaps women are selling themselves short on these white purely american men when we arent giving other men chances...other ones who speak different languages a little cafe au lait in their skin... tall dark and handsome men from europe...maybe a mulatto...Wait cut that...i sound critical...i dont mean to sound critical purely maybe that i, myself, need to find someone a little more exotic... yes indeed...exotic...Dont get me wrong ....ive met good and bad, interesting and dull american boys...but american, if looked into is defined as a mixture, a blend...the american melting pot.... side note...my best friend, Irina...yeah she's a fruit cake...oh scratch that her name is Irina M. Pasternak...as i was corrected by her on the phone.... back to my theory... all men, boys have to be somewhat interesting...though some are slightly more than others...and those girls...are of the pure breed... Current Mood: amused Current Music: lets get retarded by the Black Eyed Peas (Comment on this)
Sunday, May 30th, 2004
2:13 am	true love...does it exist? I think so...though many a time it doesnt work out...distance...difference of opinions...anything...we may believe that we have found our true loves, or a love...though its a sad sad thing to perhaps have found that love living so far away, or in a different situation as one in which you are in... i mean honestly...there are so many people out there in love who are from different back grounds much much different ones, though they seem to never work out because of the difference in upbringing and lives, though there are those few that do live to be "happily ever after" if there is such a thing...Can anyone actually tell me if such a thing does exist? I mean come on now... i dont think it does...everyone has fights and everyone has glitches in their relationships, so how can there really be a "happily ever after"?... I do think cinderella existed, though come on now...i bet she and prince charming even had some faults and fights...disagreements...bet they even bickered on why he always needed to be so manly, hell she was a woman of her own, she could be her own person and...well yeah...feminism...isnt it grand?haha... And isnt every guy practically the same? telling you they loooove you to just get on your good side, though i do assume, and know that women are the same way..."You say you love me, say you love me But you’re never there for me, yeah, mmm...hmm... You’ll be cryin’, slowly dyin’ When I decide to leave, oh, oh"So yeah...haha...and this my friends is always the answer : When love hurts It won’t work Maybe we need some time alone We need to let it breathe. NOTHING...have you ever asked anyone a ? and gotten the answer "nothing"....its the most irritating t hing, especially when you ask them what theyve done all day and they say nothing, i mean come on now...because you know and they know they had to have done something because they very well didnt sit there in front of the computer all day or sit there at home all day knawing at the walls or staring at the walls.... lol anyhoot... je ne sais pas....pas de tout...fous les comp.... OUTSOURCE BUSH--> NOT JOBS GUNS DONT KILL PEOPLE; PEOPLE KILL PEOPLE so yeah this was just another one of my careless livejournal entries that absolutely make no sense whatsoever.... leah and lyle i miss you girls! miss the three meshugunas! Current Mood: bitchy Current Music: leave (get out) by jojo (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, May 29th, 2004
11:24 pm	je ne sais pas... true love...does it exist? I think so...though many a time it doesnt work out...distance...difference of opinions...anything...we may believe that we have found our true loves, or a love...though its a sad sad thing to perhaps have found that love living so far away, or in a different situation as one in which you are in... i mean honestly...there are so many people out there in love who are from different back grounds much much different ones, though they seem to never work out because of the difference in upbringing and lives, though there are those few that do live to be "happily ever after" if there is such a thing...Can anyone actually tell me if such a thing does exist? I mean come on now... i dont think it does...everyone has fights and everyone has glitches in their relationships, so how can there really be a "happily ever after"?... I do think cinderella existed, though come on now...i bet she and prince charming even had some faults and fights...disagreements...bet they even bickered on why he always needed to be so manly, hell she was a woman of her own, she could be her own person and...well yeah...feminism...isnt it grand?haha... And isnt every guy practically the same? telling you they loooove you to just get on your good side, though i do assume, and know that women are the same way..."You say you love me, say you love me But you’re never there for me, yeah, mmm...hmm... You’ll be cryin’, slowly dyin’ When I decide to leave, oh, oh"So yeah...haha...and this my friends is always the answer : When love hurts It won’t work Maybe we need some time alone We need to let it breathe.   NOTHING...have you ever asked anyone a ? and gotten the answer "nothing"....its the most irritating t   hing, especially whe (Comment on this)
Friday, May 21st, 2004
12:06 pm	okay this is pissing me off... SIX SIGNS YOU NEED TO GET SOME ACTION: (for the girls....taken from Cosmo) 1-If your mailman were even moderately less obese and didnt have all that hair on his hands, youd be all over that. 2-You wonder if Jared from those subway ads has a girlfriend. 3-In the grocery store you find yourself near the cucumbers 4-Youre developing carpal tunnel syndrome and it aint from typing. 5-Try as you may, you just cant remember why you dumped any of your exes 6-In your swimsuit you notice your bikini line scarily resembles a redwood forest. 14% of guys have lied/lie about their incomes to get a girl into bed with them... r-e-c-y-c-l-e & wear sunscreen... So, i was at a loss of words and a friend of mine Patrick told me to write about my feelings, which then arose-what feelings? what emotions?What about feelings...feelings are such a funny thing because we never really expose our true selves to the open world in fear of rejection and ridicule....some of us probably imagine how feelings should always be sugar coated...i dont believe feelings should be sugar coated though i do believe some aspects of life ought to be....Though society is slowly becoming a more and more cynical place....people are becoming more cynical...i mean my roomie Leah...hi leah...well we love her, though kinda depressing aint it that you over analyzed why that old couple in Jaffrey were sitting so away from eachother on a bench.... I myself would love to go back to the days where clothes didnt match and boys had cooties...though, wait my clothes always matched :) ! A good friend of mine's grandmother died yesterday-Jim my heart and hope goes out to you- if you need anything im here-and it brought back the dismal feelings for which i inhabited when my grandfather and grandmother died. More so my grandfather in that i was extremely close to him. Seeing him in the coffin so cold and pale, so still and fragile made it all seem so surreal. It couldnt be happening i imagined and i was in denial though then i came to the sense that the world would end without him in it. The childish and immature yet comforting belief that he would always be there for me whenever i needed it.the belief that we cant lose the ones we love because we love them so much...Some perhaps considering it selfish for our loved ones to die and leave us...some of us ponder on the factor that we never really had a chance to say goodbye, though do we ever really say goodbye? for even when we do say goodbye we dont imagine it to be for the last time, or forever;though for those of us who know that saying their last goodbyes are forever, some perhaps choose to merely ignore it and continue on believing they will see their loved one once again.We must all realize though, as maturing young adults, that there is a circle of life and its highly immature and childish to believe that no one could ever or should ever die because there just isnt enough room in the world for all of us, and some must die for others to be born. True, no one should ever have to be exposed to the dismal-ness of death and all that comes with it, though we must consider here the circle of life. I myself, rightfully knowing it to be wrong, wish to just sit here in my pink dress and black mary janes clutching my nineteen year old Fofinho bear in one hand and a lollipop in the other and continue believing that it just isnt fair for anyone to die--- allowing for the child within to fully emerge... God i wish jenni pu was here...need to *destress*.... Im playing with fire....*keeps thoughts to self* stay tuned for next live journal as we revisit the "cow theory"...and how another cow has emerged, we not only see the new cow and old cow as hesitations for the bull, though there is the cow in which the bull continues to pursue though she continues to turn him down...this is the classic view of "guys always want what they cant have" no matter how many times you turn some of em down, some of them just keep coming right back.... ***bought awesome new shoes yesterday Veronni by Steven*** (so there are no pretty colors because livejournal is a pain) (Comment on this)
12:05 pm	continuation of the last entry...since livejournal is being a pain... (Comment on this)
11:29 am	"a lawyers practice is also a reflection of his own integrity" SIX SIGNS YOU NEED TO GET SOME ACTION: (for the girls....taken from Cosmo) (Comment on this)